At the heart of Gwen’s Book of Dreams is my call by God to a ministry that I am yet to walk into. I received this call to ministry many years ago but, even though I said yes to God then, a part of me has always been afraid, and has always been resisting. I have never really felt qualified for what I am called to do and the thought of speaking publicly, before an audience, has always terrified me.

I have seen Jesus in many dreams, some of which I have discussed in my previous three books. The dreams regarding my call to ministry, however, for the most part, I’ve kept to myself, until now. I’ve always seen myself as a candle, not a star. That is, I like to stay in the background and cheer others on. Standing in front of an audience and speaking publicly is something I have always dreaded and shied away from as much as possible.

I’ve asked God on many occasions if, just maybe, I misunderstood or misinterpreted the dreams regarding my call to ministry. After writing them all down in Gwen’s Book of Dreams, however, I started to wonder if I missed my calling. It became abundantly clear to me the path that God wanted me to take. Since then, the urge to go into ministry has only gotten stronger.

Among the many dreams that suggested that God wants me to go into ministry, two stand out. I received both dreams in 2015, prior to the publication of my first book. In the first of these dreams, I was handed a brown leather briefcase that belonged to the Apostle Paul. I opened it to find one single book inside. As I held onto the briefcase, I said to God in prayer, “This ministry would be a lot more effective if you lead me.” As I started to walk down some steps and unto the road, I prayed, “I will go wherever you lead me and do whatever you lead me to do. All I ask for is your protection upon me and my family.”

In the second dream that same year, Jesus suddenly appeared to my daughter and me as we were spending quality time together in the living room of our home. He placed before each of us two crystal-clear cylinder glasses of water as He said, “Quick! We need to get these to everyone in order for them to be caught up in the rapture!” He then disappeared as suddenly as He had appeared, at the speed of lightning.

It’s not clear to me yet how I will give birth to this ministry or exactly what it will look like, but I have seen miraculous healings and deliverance in many of my dreams. In one dream, after seeing the minute hand move on a watch that Jesus was cradling in his hands, and with the full revelation that in just another 24 hours this earth and everything in it would go up in flames, I stood up, projected my voice and spontaneously started to preach to the crowd of people gathered around us, telling them to repent and turn to Jesus so that they may be able to escape what’s about to happen.

In a dream during the night of July 1, 2022, I was informed by some future employees that I own a Television Network that was staffed with ten employees. I am believing God today for a thriving Christian Television Network that is fully staffed with God-centered individuals who share the vision and work together harmoniously. Together, we will boldly proclaim the Word of God all around the world!

I am done allowing fear to stand in my way of answering this call of God upon my life. 2 Timothy 1:7 tells us that God did not give us a spirit of fear but of power, of love, and a sound mind. I have finally come to a place of total surrender to God and His will for my life. My prayer is, “not my will but thine be done, O God. I am ready to walk boldly into my divine destiny!”

I’m humbly submitting my will to God and dedicating my life to following wherever He may lead. I’m fully aware that I can do absolutely nothing in my own strength or wisdom. That’s why I intend to continue to live daily at the feet of Jesus and allow the Holy Spirit to lead me and guide me every step of the way. His will be done! Mine does not matter anymore. I’ve made up my mind to go the distance whatever it may cost.

Several years ago, I heard the voice of Jesus very clearly in a dream. He said, “I have placed books inside of you. You will need to vomit them up.” I’ve done that, four so far, and now I’m eagerly awaiting further direction.

While I wait, I’m praying for courage. I’m praying for boldness, and I’m praying for wisdom as I move forward by faith. I’m encouraged by the many scriptures from the Bible that make it clear that, “Whom God calls, He also equips.”

I’m encouraged also by something my pastor, Pastor Alfred Watts of Cornerstone Christian Center, has said so many times over the last several weeks as he encourages each member of our congregation to find his or her place within the body of Christ and play his or her part, “You never know what’s on the other side of yes. If God has placed a dream inside of you, dare to say yes and allow God to do amazing things through you.” While this is a paraphrase, this is the gist of his message.

Moreover, Jesus said to me in a dream several years ago as He sat on the side of my daughter’s bed, “I gave you power to do all these things.” I dared to say yes and have voiced it in Gwen’s Book of Dreams. Now I am waiting on God’s leading. I will humbly submit to His will and follow Him obediently, wherever He may lead. “Lead me dear Lord, I pray.”